I have been a studious girl in my childhood. And because of
my deep interest in studies, I always
secured good marks and ranks during my school days. From class 6th
to 10th, continuous five years I secured the first rank in my class. Although class 10th board exam results were the first taste of failure for me when I was at fifth position in terms of overall marks
percentage. Apart from studies, I was also active in other activities like
debate, essay writing, and singing. I
used to take part in various inter-school
competitions and luckily I always got a prize, if not always first then either
second or third for sure. My house of was full of trophies and medals. This
success had made me a popular kid among parents of my classmates. My father used to feel very proud of me as I used to succeed in every test where I appeared till
class 10th. And with success come the fear of losing it. Slowly I started hating failures. I wished
to win all the time. I only wanted fame and recognition so if once or twice I
didn’t get any prizes, I used to feel awful.
My 10th board exams were the first time when I
was behind four girls of my class. After knowing the percentage of marks, I closed myself in a room and for next few hours, I cried badly. I was not ready to accept
my defeat. But somehow my parents convinced
me to look forward towards next two years of my studies. I had to change my school for
these two years, class 11th and 12th and the new school was a government one. There were
more than 200 girls in my class. As my half yearly exams of class 11th
came close, I started thinking about my rank in the class after these exams. I
wanted to stand in top three and I worked
hard for it. Finally, results came
out and I got the third rank in my class.
When my name was announced in school assembly, all new girls of my class started making
noise for cheering me up. They all wanted
to shake hands with me. After a fall I was again on top of the world. And again my journey
of success continued till my post graduation
final semester. I got the second rank in college
in my graduation course. Post graduation
was a professional course and was a completely
new field for me. Yet after first two semesters, I was in top three students of the batch. With each of these achievements, my
hatred for falling down kept on increasing.
Now the time came when I started
appearing in recruitment test as I was in the final
semester of my professional course. And my success story suddenly changed from
that time.
I appeared in more than 10 recruitment drives but I couldn't clear any of them. In many of these on
campus and off campus tests, I was able
to clear the written test but I failed in further
rounds. I was failing constantly everywhere.
I had passed my professional course with good marks and third rank in batch but
I had no job in my hands. Whereas many of my batch mates had more than one
offers in hand. As I was not having any good company offer, I joined a very
small company and there I worked for more than two years. The environment of
the company was not at all woman friendly
but I had no other option. In these two years, I appeared in many interviews and
tests for switching the job but my bad luck never lets me succeed in any of
them. With so many failures, I had a new type of fear in me, fear of getting a lemon from my life. I was preparing for government
exams along with my job but more than thinking about clearing it, I used to
think about losing it. I was negative and hopeless. I even stopped giving interviews and test
thinking I had enough success in my childhood and now was the time of getting
flop everywhere. This fear of failure was so deep in my mind that I used to
avoid my friends and relatives. I had fear of their question about my job and
career. I had no hope for my future and
I was scared of my life’s checkmate.
After two and half years, I changed my job which I was not
liking at all. The new company was a lot better place to work. Slowly people
started recognizing my work and talent.
My managers started appreciating my involvement in other team activities. And
again the graph of success started getting better for me. I was getting good
appraisals, I was promoted well. But I was a changed
person by then. I had understood that success and failure are two faces of a
coin. If a person is getting success
today, he might get fail tomorrow. But we should not fear of failures. Failures
give a person chance to learn and improve oneself . I had understood that
without failure we can’t understand the value of success.
‘This post is a part of Write Over the Weekend, an initiative for Indian Bloggers by BlogAdda.’
Overcoming failures is indeed very brave. Good one Shipra
ReplyDeleteThank you for reading my post Fatima :)
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